The entire process feels a
Perhaps you recognize that, in yourself.
And so I find myself asking the inevitable question “Why is this so difficult to just DO rather than think about forever?”
Is this just a struggle with excessive "conscientiousness," as many HSPs experience?
Am I a slave to perfectionism?
My reality — as I am experiencing it — is more one of feeling like I am taking a completely new direction. And not only that, I feel hesitation and a bit of anxiety about taking this new direction and committing fully to it.
We HSPs often struggle with change, even when it is initiated by ourselves. Even one of the items on Elaine Aron's "Sensitivity Self Test" is "Changes in my life shake me up."
To be honest, I also am experiencing an element of self-doubt. Am I doing the right thing? What will people think of me for doing this? Am I just worrying too much?
I looked at those words and then I stopped and just laughed at myself. Here I am, at 59 years of age, and I'm still having these self-doubts!
Anyway, the long and the short of what I am setting out to do differently can pretty much be summarized thusly:
The 18-year history of this blog has centered in it being a blog about “HSP stuff.”
And yes, some of the time I will be engaged in that dreaded thing called “self-promotion;” touching on the many projects I am involved with and inviting visitors to go check it out. But not just for commercial reasons, also to offer an insight into what "HSP Life" can look like.
As I wrote in a post a couple of years ago, perhaps the ultimate objective of learning as much as possible about being an HSP, is that we eventually arrive at a point where our lives are no longer defined by "being an HSP;" instead we incorporate the knowledge we've gained and simply return to being "a person" for whom being an HSP is simply one attribute of many in their lives.
Let's face it, I am an HSP! No denying that!
But I am also a Danish citizen, very tall, a cat lover, an artist, a husband, a writer, an editor, a stamp collector, a beachcomber, a polymath, a photographer and a whole bunch of other things!
I think we can go overboard and get so wrapped up in a place where we define every single thing we do and experience in life “in terms of being an HSP.” That is, we view ourselves as HSPs first, and as human beings, second. Frankly, I think it should be the other way around — we're human beings first, and HSPs second.
And so, it is with that in mind, that I set forth to gently keep making changes to the HSP Notes blog and website.
And it my sincere hope that you will continue to share in this journey with me!
Thank you for reading.
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